Tuesday, June 05, 2007
All Washed Up
Centuries of pounding waves have carved a bowl out of the black rock face. Riddled with barnacles, it appears as the night sky flecked with the light of countless distant galaxies. The rough, granular surface contrasts boldly against the vibrant green algae shag carpeting which smoothes the boulders at the sea’s edge. In between sits a man who has been equally hollowed by the raging sea. He came to this place not to seek solace but to wallow in suffocating anguish. Surrendering to his torment, he contorts his body into the fetal position. He sits as naked as a snail plucked from its shell, and equally as vulnerable, readily awaiting his turn to be gobbled out of existence.
He holds his legs steadfastly; his face obscured by his knees. He relishes in his aching muscles and in the discomfort of his surroundings. His expression is contorted as he closes his eyes firmly to keep out the salt air whose sting is like that of iodine in a fresh paper cut. It tastes of the night air when he used to walk these shores with the one he loved. His once neatly tamed black hair is now matted down and clumped together, allowing the salty brine to run off as it does from a sea bird’s oily foliage. He sits atop a carpet of algae covered stone; his leanly muscled body pale and helpless against his dark existence.
In front of him lie a scattering of boulders of various shapes and sizes that were violently rejected by the sea. Some are velvety green and others smooth and exposed like unfledged chicks. The cracks in the stone wall behind him radiate out from where he sits at the center, framing him against the struggle of nature. The sun shines brightly but he is unable to feel its affection. A cold shiver races up and down his spine forcing involuntary convulsions and he senses his helplessness.
His muscles taught, he anticipates the next crashing blow which promises to drag him to the murky depths of the unforgiving beast that has robbed him of his desire. The sounds of the approaching fury assure him that his breath will recede with the tide. Each passing minute of existence tortures his conscience and poisons his mind with feelings of guilt. For a moment the sad cry of a lonely gull taints the air with a haunting recollection but it is quickly snuffed out by the roar of the surf as the frothy mix slams into the wall, shattering his existence.
Honeysuckle and Molasses
The smell of molasses permeates the air as Poco’s steamy breath billows from her flared nostrils. She gives me a good sniff-over, taking extra time to inspect my skinned elbows and nibble on the honeysuckle dangling from my hair. Her thick wet slab of a tongue leaves trails of grassy slobber smeared across my forehead and arms as she inspects the damage. After a few moments she seems satisfied that I am in one piece and she raises her head back into the air. She towers so high above me that she looks like a giraffe. I giggle as I picture her with big pink spots and some knobby antlers.
Defiantly she thrusts her head up toward the sky, curls her lip into the air, and as she rolls her eyes back into her head she enjoys a good laugh at my expense. Poco didn’t think it was a good idea for us to reenact the Kentucky Derby on such a steep hill. This is how she tells me “I told you so!” Poco rubs my nose in it every time lost an argument with gravity. I climb to my feet, spit out a baby tooth and made sure no one had seen the spill. My secret was safe with her.
A black and white barred wild turkey feather catches my eye. I pluck it from the ground and braid it into Poco’s unruly mane. My dirty blood streaked skin has me feeling a little savage as I use a fist full of mane to pull myself back onto my steed. This time I am a fierce Indian warrior and Poco is a wild mustang. We set off in search of the mighty Buffalo that inhabit the backyard.
Monday, June 04, 2007
Puppy Love
Gabcast! Listen Up #2
(must be read in a chihuahua accent)
Love is hard, you know?
I treat her like a purebred even though she’s a mutt
I took her to the dog show
and caught her sniffing pit-bull butt
She is such a ho that I had to let her go
She got our puppies and all I got were fleas
I make sure her rent is paid
and she takes my milk bones without saying please
She’s probably out at the dog park getting laid,
If you ask me the bitch should be spayed!
Sad song
Hoy Dia Luna, Dia pena
How me levanto sin razon
hoy me levanto y no quiero
hoy dia luna, dia pena
Arriba la luna ooooeeeaaaa
Arriba la luna ooooeeeaaaa
Hoy dia luna, dia pena
hoy me levanto sin razon
hoy me levanto y no llego
a ninguna destinacion
Arriba la luna ooeeaa
Arriba la luna ooeeaa
Hoy dia luna, dia pena
Hoy me levanto sin razon
Hoy me levanto y no quiero
hoy dia luna, dia muero
Arriba la luna ooeeaa
Arriba la luna ooeeaa
Arriba la luna ooeeaa
--Manuo Chao
Names of Horses by Donald Hall
All winter your brute shoulders strained against collars, padding
and steerhide over the ash hames, to haul
sledges of cordwood for drying through spring and summer,
for the Glenwood stove next winter, and for the simmering range.
In April you pulled cartloads of manure to spread on the fields,
dark manure of Holsteins, and knobs of your own clustered with oats.
All summer you mowed the grass in meadow and hayfield, the mowing
machine
clacketing beside you, while the sun walked high in the morning;
and after noon's heat, you pulled a clawed rake through the same acres,
gathering stacks, and dragged the wagon from stack to stack,
and the built hayrack back, uphill to the chaffy barn,
three loads of hay a day, hanging wide from the hayrack.
Sundays you trotted the two miles to church with the light load
a leather quartertop buggy, and grazed in the sound of hymns.
Generation on generation, your neck rubbed the windowsill
of the stall, smoothing the wood as the sea smooths glass.
When you were old and lame, when your shoulders hurt bending to graze,
one October the man, who fed you and kept you, and harnessed
you every
morning,
led you through corn stubble to sandy ground above Eagle Pond,
and dug a hole beside you where you stood shuddering in your skin,
and lay the shotgun's muzzle in the boneless hollow behind your ear,
and fired the slug into your brain, and felled you into your grave,
shoveling sand to cover you, setting goldenrod upright above you,
where by next summer a dent in the ground made your monument.
For a hundred and fifty years, in the Pasture of dead horses,
roots of pine trees pushed through the pale curves of your ribs,
yellow blossoms flourished above you in autumn, and in winter
frost heaved your bones in the ground - old toilers, soil makers:
O Roger, Mackerel, Riley, Ned, Nellie, Chester, Lady Ghost.
Written by Donald Hall from Kicking the Leaves (1978)
I chose to include this poem because it emphasizes the hard work that our horses do for us and how important it is for them to receive a respectful and peaceful end. Getting shot in the head and falling into a hole may not seem like the best way to go, but it is a peaceful alternative to the suffering and neglect that many old horses endure for years before their death. I hope that when my day comes someone will have the respect to put a slug in me and lay me down in a pleasant field rather than let me rot away in a hospital somewhere.
Friday, May 25, 2007
And I rode off into the sunset...
When life in Madison begins to stress me out I head for the border and then follow the Pacific Coast of Mexico until I come to paradise - aka Manzanillo. Jeremy took this shot of me riding off into the sunset atop "Conejo" or "Rabbit." It landed me a job as a cowgirl at Rancho Miramar working with Gamaliel and the crew.
On the Capitol steps
15,000 people showed up to show their support for our immigrant friends, family and neighbors. There was an air of excitement in the air as speakers encouraged protesters to become actively involved in politics and to keep up the fight.
Libertad y Justicia para Todos!
Liberty and Justice for all! on April 10, 2006 thousands of immigrants and locals alike marched to the Capitol building in Madison, Wi and across the nation demanding immigration reform.
Enter SuperChango
What a lovely day for an innigration protest! My brother Isaac, adorned with a Mexican flag for a cape, demonstrates a skating tecnique not to be attempted by the faint of heart (or the unisured!)
Sculpture
This rusty knob is a piece of a large scrap metal sculpture that resides in Dr. Evermore's sculpture garden. Dr. Evermore is known for creating the world's largest scrap metal structure -- the Futuretron -- which was built to be a fully functioning time machine. It is near completion.
Inverted-Capitol
This photo was taken in the middle of the night from across Lake Mendota (the colors have been inverted). It was a chilly 5 degrees when I took this shot and my face almost froze to my camera! Using a tripod I held the shutter open manually for almost 30 seconds to get a crisp night shot.
Splitting headache
Some Halloween fun - We shot this in my living room after several hours of make up and prosthetics - Special thanks to Jeremy and Christine for indulging my need for some gorey fun.
Good lookin guys
These are my main men - Jeremy and Marley. We've been a team for 6 years now. They are also my travel companeros